I am afraid that I am totally stumped for something to say to those who tell me that I am an encouragment to them. I spent the car ride home from work tonight asking God a whole bunch of questions. I also informed Him that I was very tired and needed relief. During all of Saturday, I felt angry, then sad, then angry again. But by the time the day was drawing to a close, I mostly felt sorry for another person. You see, I have the luxury of dropping my heavy burdens at the foot of the cross. The person who is choosing to persecute me, is just trying to juggle his by blaming others, and making up reasons why bad decisions are justified. I have tried over the course of the past few months to be very careful and respectful on this blog. I really, just want others to know of the awesome work of God in my life. That is the purpose of this blog. Today, all I can say is that I am still standing on the firm rock, I am out of the pit, but I have very wobbly legs, and another storm showed up before my house could get built. I am coming to believe that God doesn't promise us a fun and happy life in this world. I know that heaven, my eternal home, will be spectacular. I think that he is missing the point of that. He thinks that life is about fun and filling your life with temporary things that make you happy. So that is why I must feel sorry for him. He hasn't gotten the big picture of what exactly we as Christians are in for when this life is through.
I guess I had more to say than I thought that I did. I must remember that what he means for evil, God means for good! I can claim that promise for me and for my two girls.
I hadn't intended to blog, but I read what Charity blogged, and I was compelled to steal it again. For one, it reminded me again how much I am loved. Thanks Char.
My friend Sandy has been enduring an extremely difficult trial these past few months and sadly, this day brings even harder events to face.
I feel like someone has tied my hands up and made me mute because no matter how much the desire...I cannot seem to get to her or form the right words to bring comfort.
One thing I can deeply relate to...I did not want the call I got today and it was added to a deep pool of hurts already within my heart this week so that I feel I could drown in if I let myself.
I am having to refocus my mind minute by minute as I know my dear friend is doing...times a million minutes.
"Why is my face downcast?...Why is my soul bewildered?...Hope in the Lord."
There is still hope, San. When God is in the midst...There is always hope.
Let us together remember to praise God that He has already taken care of our greatest need..Our sin.
I love you, friend."
So we do not lose heart...for this momentary affliction is preparing us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison." 11Corinthians 4:16-17
Jesus, Draw Me Ever Nearer
Jesus, draw me ever nearer
As I labor through the storm
You have called me to this passage
And I'll follow though I'm worn
May this journey bring a blessing
May I rise on wings of faith
At the end of my heart's testing
With Your likeness let me wake
Jesus, guide me through this tempest
Keep my spirit staid and sure
When the midnight meets the morning
Let me love You even more
Let the treasures of this trial
Form within me as I go
And at the end of this long passage