I had an interesting day, and I am too keyed up to sleep yet. I guess I shouldn't have had any caffeine tonight, but I am paying for it now. I ended up in the ER tonight with a friend who's little girl had a cut over her eye. Thankfully, it was able to be glued, and the little girl isn't forever scarred at the thought of going to the doctor! I was very proud of the ER where I work tonight, everyone made a great impression on my friends, and that made me feel good.
I had a long conversation with a good friend with whom I have a strained relationship today. Being able to talk with this person is this strange mix of wonderful and sad and frustrating. It reminds me that I am a person still being worked on by the hands of the Potter. I am thankful that I can rest in the Grace that comes from God. If I couldn't, days like today would put me in depression for quite a while. I struggle with what to say to this person that is encouraging and edifying. Tonight, I walked away with the impression that I had not sinned in any of my statements, and that God's work in my life was abundantly clear.
When I came home tonight, I flipped over to the 17th on my Power of a Praying wife calendar. The statement made was very encouraging, especially in light of some of the statements that I made in my conversation. "Dying to yourself is always painful. Especially when you are so convinced that the other person needs more changing than you. But this kind of pain leads to life." Currently, I am not sure that there is anyone on earth that needs more changing than me! Just as soon as I think that I am getting somewhere, God reminds me that I have SO much more to unravel and let Him change about me. I am definitely aware that the dying part is painful. I SO get that. But a rebuilt life on God's chosen foundation, with God's carefully chosen building materials is SO worth the process. (my daughter like's to say I am SO not doing that, it kinda sounds cute when she says it;)
However, God's faithful work in my life gives me a great deal of hope in the promise that he is working in others' lives. Even when I am not allowed to see these works in progress, I must choose to believe that God does what He says He will do.